You’re all disgusting!!
Had another one of those discussions with my classmates. The ones where they all tell me how ‘disgusting’ and ‘sad’ I am for being with the same boy since I was 15. How I should enjoy being 18 and ‘free’.
Then of course they asked that question that I dread from everyone, ‘Do you actually love him, would you marry him if he asked you?’
You’ve all just sat and told me how sad and disgusting I am. I’m not going to be ridiculed further by all of you.
I just answered I wouldn’t marry at 18.
What I wanted to say however was, ‘Yes! I love him so much. You guys wouldn’t understand, I don’t understand. And his family, I love his family. My family are terrible, so I want his family to be mine.
And yes! I would marry him. I mean I’ve already thought about this in depth. I’ve even got the children planned and how I’ll read to them every night and how their Daddy will teach them to skate.
I want my little girl to have curls! I want my little boy to look like a little itty bitty california surfer.
I’ve even thought about the pets! A cat and a dog. Breeds? I even know them. Tortoise shell cat and Cavalier dog.’
But I didn’t say that. Why do I need to validate or explain my relationship to anyone else?
